February 14th - Boot Camp.
February 13th - where the hell is my period? I'm on birth control... ok maybe its just stress and change in eating habits and stuff like that...
February 18th - my baby brother was sitting on the couch as we all played Zumba... he got really quiet and just started puking all of the sudden... The flu! Yea, that's cool. The family started Boot Camp to lose a very significant amount of weight by the end of the year... the flu puts a damper on the whole "work out pretty hard core at least 3 days a week until we reach our respective goals" plan... but alright, we'll deal with it.
For days after my brother puked everywhere, I couldn't find anything that settled in my stomach... nothing... and I slept... all the time...
February 21st - Dentist appointment. I need a crown on the back tooth. They put in a temporary but I still have to go back... When they were making the impression to create the temporary, they put a lot of yellow stuff on a stick and then put purple stuff over the yellow stuff and all I could think was how gross thats going to be because its so much slimy stuff and so far back in my mouth and its going to be horrible... I bit down on the yellow and purple slime and tried to hold it there for the time they asked. The involuntary need to swallow caused some of the purple slime to travel down my throat more and more and it was hardening and made me gag... I removed the stick from my mouth and tried to get the purple stuff out with my fingers... Didn't work very well. I ended up gagging and puking into the sink, but only stomach bile. Anyone that has puked stomach bile knows thats not very nice... I got it all out, got the temporary cap on my tooth and went home.
February 22nd - Facebook update says
My body is a week behind. Fatigue? supposed to be last week. Cramps? also, supposed to be last week!! Be a bitch and not know how to control it? SUPPOSED TO BE LAST FUCKING WEEK... Gah I just want to strangle a puppy at this point...
Yea... more than a week, I just started to notice though... I was so tired, slept all day, woke up and changed position and slept again. I was cramping like I just started my period... but my period never showed up (and I wrote it off as just a change in things I was doing). Not to mention I found myself getting very pissed off at things like the volume of people in the house past a certain hour... the way the dishes were or weren't done... how long it took for simple things like water to boil... and peoples facebook posts that seem to constantly be misspelled... but whatever, its just me being a bitch because my body is a week behind and I missed my period but all of the other stuff seems to be coming a week later! FUCK!
February 23rd - I want squash. WTF?! I don't eat vegetables... haven't since I was born... Whatever. Healthy mindset because I'm trying to work out and lose weight and get my life on track. This is a good thing... But dear god, that squash idea? HORRIBLE... Once again, nothing is settling very well in my stomach... nothing... I've officially tried everything, including a fucking vegetable... Whatever, I'm so tired of this... I wish whatever this is would just go away...
February 24th - I can keep down oatmeal... Well to be completely honest I can keep everything down, its just taking a lot of concentration and very small bites with lots of water between... But gah I feel like shit today... case of the blahs I'm sure. Fuck this, fuck that, fucking headache, fuckityfuckfuck. I'm so tired and just... I miss him... I've been really good about not really getting emotional... but why am I so tired and why do I miss him so much and why do I keep whimpering and asking "why" questions!! meh. fuck today. sleeping it off.
February 25th - Facebook update says
I felt fine... for a minute... then I tried to eat something and drink some water... and the horrible feeling in my stomach came back... not really appreciating this whole thing, I wish it would just go away...
No really, I wiiiish it would just go away, why is this flu feeling lasting so fucking long? Everyone else got over it in like 2 days... I didn't even get a fever or shaky or anything like they did... uhh maybe I don't have what they have... I mean my immune system is shit and always has been but never like this...
February 26th - Ok I'm really getting fucking frustrated with whatever this is... if it doesn't go away tonight I'm calling the doctor in the morning and making an appointment and asking what the fuck is wrong with me!! Whyyy am I so tired and so sick all fucking day and night?!
Facebook update says
Growing a massive aversion to all food... and liquids... ALL... I can't find ANYTHING (no matter how good it sounds or weird it is or normal) that settles in my stomach very well for the last few days... anything I eat makes me sick... anything I drink makes me nauseous... EVEN EFFING WATER!!! I wish whatever this is would just go away.
I call my mom in the afternoon and tell her that I don't understand whats going on and then she busts in with "I'm headed to your house with a pregnancy test... I've been reading your updates..." I burst into tears and told her about the missing period (which I had already told my dad and step mom about... along with the unsettling food... Dad suggested I was pregnant but I told him to stfu because I took my birth control the whole time Athila was here!!) and she said she thinks I'm probably pregnant... I started crying more and saying how I'm not ready for this and not ready to be a mom and I can't be pregnant because I was on my birth control the whole time!
Mom shows up a few hours later and makes me pee in a cup, takes a few drops and puts it on that evil white pee absorbing device and I sit and watch it travel and instantly turn dark pink where it shouldn't if I was the only one in my body. Evil dark pink line... EVIL... dark pink line followed by a significantly noticeable other pink line... TWO PINK LINES OF EVIL! I started shaking and saying "no no no no no..." and my mom smiled and told me "you're guna be a mommy, Beauty!" O_O LIES! LIES AND DECEIT! I just kept shaking my head... my dad got home with my step mom and my mom told them while I just sat and cried and cried and cried...
Time to break the news to baby-daddy... I made sure he was working from home so if anything happened I could tell him and not feel like I'm massively disrupting his work day... because "baby in belly" seems like something that might not be MASSIVELY disrupting... just shocking... and slightly appalling... and shocking... and only "slightly" disruptive... right? LOGIC FLAW! but you get the point, I don't want him freaking out at work... I would much rather he freak out in the comfort of his own home... which, in case you were wondering... is almost 7,000 miles away.
Athila's reaction was more along the shocked... and well... shocked... kind of reactions... which is totally expected.
February 27th - I woke up and called the damn doctor...
"needs to make appointment plz."
"for?"
"positive pregnancy test says I'm positively pregnant..."
"alright, and when was the first day of your last period?"
"I dont know... why..."
"We need to know so we know how far along you are and get you in at your 8th week."
"but I need to come in and confirm that I have a pea sized parasitical hormone demon growing in my uterus..." (ok I didn't call it that on the phone... but you get the point...)
"oh, well can you come pick up a blood work lab sheet today? We can call you with the results in the morning!"
"Yes. It must be done."
Went in and got the lab sheet and told her what I figured out as my first day of last period (January 16-20th) and she said I've got an appointment on March 14th for my first prenatal exam.
Went in and did the blood work... and once again got annoyed with the blood thief. they always say they cant get blood from me... whatever... but it works when i tell them how...
now its 2:30 in the morning and I'll probably be awake until I get the phone call. Given the morning sickness, mood swings, cravings, missed period, and positive test, I'm going to say its safe to accept that I am the host to a pea sized parasitical hormone demon...
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