Mixed feelings

I've been sitting here with a blank blog post in front of me looking for a more sensitive way to say this... Can't find one... So here it goes. I am happy I'm not married to the man that got me pregnant. I don't refer to him as my boyfriend or the love of my life or anything positive because I feel nothing positive about him. Its not because of the HG that I feel nothing positive for him... but more because how he has treated me while I suffer with the HG. He isn't here to suffer through it with me and doesn't seem to care much that I have to suffer through this. He is keeping the baby a secret... I mean right now I think that is better than everyone knowing when all I can think about is how I'm going to be a single mom and he won't be in its life... So I suppose thats the best thing for him if very little people know.