Not playing.

I'm not playing here and I'm starting to think you are. I should have never gotten this involved. Time to do something about it. I'll cling to what I can and run away. Perfection is always the ultimate imperfection. Thanks for that realization.

-you will be the wife of someone who knows what he will be
-ha if you marry me.
-it was a flirt.
- i know im not retarded.
-just a little. [kidding]
-im memory challenged, not mentally... i would marry you in a heartbeat. fact. not flirt.
-got it... well i gotta go.


hmmm yea ok. bye.





I got too involved. Welcome back to Earth, hope your stay on Cloud 9 was amazing.

One things for sure. He knows how to get to my blog and read it now... So I'll censor a little more than normal until I forget that fact.


*edit*
-je t'aime........ why did you start telling me that and then stop?
[he ignores question]
[i hang up]
- huahauhua don't be angry at me
-whatever.
-I didn't stop saying that, don't worry, come on I said I wasn't going to push your buttons... but I just did.
-yes you did and I feel like a moron saying it.
-sorry?
-mmhmm... i told you not to play with me and i feel like you are. you say you can't fix this cu you arent here but your charm has worked over the net before, but whatever, hold me at arms length then i dont care.
-?
-nothing. forget it.
-well ok I dont understand why you became like this or why you are telling me that.
-you stopped telling me that and I kinda just feel like you were saying it and then trying to get me to feel like that and then laugh at it. its frustrating. idk maybe I'm taking this too serious. but whatever. it is what it is. you have stuff to do so goodnight I guess.
-[insert 'i feel bad and dont know what to say' expression here] Good night.
-Thats all you have to say? cool.




I hate feeling like I'm being played with, a little reassurance that you aren't playing around with my emotions or head goes a LONG way. Thats all I was asking for and you went blank... wtf... I duno what to say.