Reality

I was so used to thinking of myself as some fat chick that no one would ever find attractive that when people say things like what I'm about to copy and paste into here, I would figure they are just trying to be nice to me...




Athila says:
 your mouth is pink
Tiff says:
 you're observant
Athila says:
 no
 it means that your skin is very white
 but I am observant of the beautiful things
 has james stopped annoying you ?
Tiff says:
 no
 hes still convinced that we need to meet
 and i think hes under the impression that we need to meet up and have sex
 but thats not what i want
Athila says:
 I understand...
 that is a lame... not playing jo-ken-po in the webcam
Tiff says:
 yea
 stupid boys with their lack of imaginations
Athila says:
 yeah... specially, that's what their lives are faded to
 meet girls and have sex
Tiff says:
 why do they only want that from me...
Athila says:
 because you are attractive
Tiff says:
 thats news to me...
Athila says:
 well, if you wanna hear something true from a man, I will do this job so you can have those information to know how to act before this kind of problems
Tiff says:
 i was so used to not being 'attractive' so... someone saying i am is...
 i cant think of the word
 it sounds like a lie
Athila says:
 well...
 again...
 I will tell you one thing from the perspective of a man, at least mine, and then you treat this as you like
 ok ?
Tiff says:
 k
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U&ob=av3e
 lol
Athila says:
 (now I understand)
Tiff says:
 what?
Athila says:
 Now I understand why you like this song
Tiff says:
 and why is that?
Athila says:
 because you think I lie when I say things to you (specially when you like them)
Tiff says:
 not just you.
Athila says:
 hm.
Tiff says:
 the whole song is amazing to me... all the words.
 http://www.directlyrics.com/eminem-love-the-way-you-lie-lyrics.html
Athila says:
 You are attractive, you have a very beautiful face and Americans have the famous to be the brightest in the world, but, believe me... the world is really almost lost and times have changed, boys they don't want anything, they don't think smart, they are fool and foolish is all what you have inside their minds. You don't like your voice not even your hair but they are simply wonderful, your hair
 your hair shines like no other and your voice is different which makes it a composition of you as a whole, sometimes you just think you have too many troubles but you don't, you are just rounded of idiots who makes you believe your world is like theirs, which makes you annoyed with this whole life...
Tiff says:
 then rescue me
Athila says:
 you might be thinking that I am saying good or beautiful things to you, but face it, it's not beautiful, it's the reality, your life is a complete shit because people are making it as a shit

Why do you have to be so far away from me? I've never had someone sit here and tell me that my life really is what it is because of the dumb fuckheads I have around me all the time... I've never had someone sit here and tell me EVERY DAY (literally...) how my hair is gorgeous and my smile is gorgeous and how pretty I am and someone likes my voice... I'm a little shocked... not really shocked as in a bad thing, I'm just not used to this sort of thing being said to me... I love that he actually says this because all of the guys I know really wouldn't tell me these things, they just sit back and let it go unsaid... and if they really thought it, they should SAY IT! Girl's aren't so complicated, say what you mean and what you think and how you feel. ITS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE!

One things for sure... I really wish he lived here...