My strings are broken....

"it's bad that you rely upon a virtual relationship, cuz I dont think it can really fill a heart"

Brain's response : "You are completely right!"
Heart's response : "uhm...." *twitches*
Verbal response : "you've got me pinned pretty well but you havent been where ive been before. it can. if you let it. and whats the point in stopping it? i dont want to learn how to separate falling in love with you here or falling in love with you in person... falling in love is falling in love theres no difference."

Time to let go? That is a definite possibility... we'll see...

Dear brain,
stop. please. thanks. I'm still in here too ya know.



One things for sure... this song... is a song...








[[Me]] so dear boy, what i was trying to say before my mom distracted me with the phone and my adorable drool bucket.... is that i think you need to give being in a long distance relationship a chance. i think you saying that a virtual relationship can't fill a heart might be true in a way but one day it wont be just virtual. if you were here i would try to make you mine, but since you arent here then i feel like you wont let me make you mine... like you're unattainable... not an option. but I want you to be an option because if you are an option, I'll take it. I want you to be mine.


[[Boy]] Okay. I follow what you said. I just would say that I have nothing against a long distance relationship, if it's enough to make you and I happy, I am okay with that. That day when I said that it can't fill a heart it's because I believe it brings a temporary happiness and it shouldn't start and end virtually, but you thought I was giving up on you, which was an understandable mistake......Let me finish before you start typing.......When it stop being virtual and becomes true, then it can really start filling a heart, this is what I meant by my general idea, and that's what I intend to do, to meet you personally and to leave behind this virtual life we are current living. When I am there, things are going to be different, you are going to see me in person and then we are going to be in personal touch, you will see how things are going to change. Hopefully for better, because if you like what you see and listen to, then you are probably going to like me. This is the "levels of relationships", we are just in the first one. As in if I saw you everyday but we never talked before. The more we advance, the more it starts filling the heart. It's immaturity when somebody thinks he can be truly happy like this. A relationship got much more than that, and I know what being really sad means, that's why I told you that...

[[Me]] well... stop being a skeptic and start being a believer. i do not have any interest in anyone but you... i want no one but you. i want to be yours, damn the distance, i can handle it.

[[Boy]] I know - I am not being a skeptic... I am just explaining you why I told you that and showed you a little bit of my views on relationships, so you stop being sad everytime you talk to me. I didn't mean to make you sad because that was just the general idea of "can't feel the heart", if you are happy with that, I can also handle that easily, as long as I know you are happy, then I am ok.









One thing's for sure... wait didn't I cover this part already?.... He's mine.